I hate the way I have been living my life. I was never able to deal with my sexual abuse, when I was a kid. I moved out of my house when I was 15. I have moved every single year since then. Every time I had any kind of an emotional attachment to anyone, I would move. I was extremely emotionless (almost robotic like). I was secretive, I drank, I kept my friends, work, and sex life extremely separate from each other.
I recently moved to a big city, and have decided to try to open my life to people. I used to hide, and not mix my worlds together. This year I have been. I am having trouble with it. I feel so exposed. I feel like I am out of control.
The worst part is, is that I don't date. I never have. I usually make up having any type of a relationship to escape questions. I can't do this anymore. I am lonely, and I want to have someone in my life. What can I do to just let me be me, and to have someone in my life. I don't want to end up alone.
2007-07-20
19:53:55
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