I have struggled with being gay all my life from early teens to my adult hood. I was teased because I am flaming ball of fire I don't know why I walk like that or have grille ways? But let me tell you I was Teased from grade school to high school It really hurt and I was damaged really bad people called me *** every day I went to school. I finely quit and had a nervous break down!! Luck was with me with my mother she was very supportive. My family was great about it all and I did have a few black friends manly grills tho.
I went to church for many answers and only found out that they hurt me to I could not be Gay and love God and he didn't love me so my self esteem was damaged so bad I turned to a life of addictions and buried my feelings about being Gay and it was bad but God did love I just didn't know it!!! I thought it might be better to be stright so I married a women and was marrired for 4 years I have two sons that I love verry much I was faithfull to her and did love her but I was always turning my head to the left to look at men and going to church at that time tring to be accpted by God I need God to love me I that was the only way I knew how to get him to love me!!!! I found my self hateing my self all together!!! I told my wife I needed to leave and I did just that.
Now I am married to a man. I love my self and found my spirit at the age of 34!!! And God does love me I found my sprit and live in peace with my self and God Iam even studing to be a minster in my faith. God is so Good and I am a good person and I now no one can take it away from me. I got to say I love my sons and get them every other weekend and every other hoilday and my husban and I are raiseing them and life is wonder full !!!!!
2007-06-27
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Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, and Transgender