I'm 32, just found out my hubby had an affair (well, 6 mo ago) and life has been down hill from there. I am disconnected from my entire family, including kids. I am very self absorbed, want to drink all the time (I dont do it, but want to, and do drink more than I used to) I feel like I am having one huge pity party. I have lost interest in my own kids, I would rather be alone, things irritate me more than before. I have never felt so powerless over my own mind in my life. Some days I feel like just packing up leaving everybody. I am not suicidal. And I am on antidepressants and anti anxiety meds. What is wrong with me? And I blame my husband for everything. My children suffer cuz of me, but in my mind, its inevitably HIS fault. And by suffering, I dont mean physical abuse, probably border line emotional abuse, cuz their mother just isnt herself and I hate myself for it. Sometimes I think the best thing IS to just leave, they would all be better off. Help me, pls.
2007-04-15
05:07:44
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