I have reached 36 and have never come out of the closet in my home town, despite having relationships from the age of five. I have tried fighting with my feelings of being gay and made my life miserable by hiding it. I had a relationship with my best friend and we ended it after he called for me one day and I felt discusted with myself, telling him never to see me again. I regretted this action and still regret this now. I also punched a guy I realy fancied when he came onto me in army cadets and told him leave me alone. I tried dating girls but knew I didn't feel right with them at all and I wasnt being fair. I am filling my life with regrets because of the way I am and I am lying to my family and relatives as I don't want them dissapointed with me. Despite the chances I have had with many georgeous men, I left myself stay single and ashamed. I am lost and don't know what to do. I didn't ask to be gay, but I know its in me and I always will be. Please advise me?
2006-12-24
03:37:46
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Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, and Transgender