I married without being in love. I didnt took this decision lightly.
First, I was desperate to leave my toxic home environment, second probably due to the emotional stress I was living in I developed a thyroid disorder that went undiagnosed for 2.5 years which left me so sick I was barely able to survive, yet I studied and worked for 4.5 years until I couldnt do it anymore, this is when I decided to marry.
I didnt fall in love with my boyfriend cause I was so emotionally broken I was uncapable of loving anybody, I needed to go through a long period of healing. Second he is a little unenthusiasitc which makes his company monotonous, but I need to add that he has beautiful qualities that I admire. Third, since I was not taught healthy boundaries by mom I let him have sex with me too early, so our relationship didnt develop at my own pace.
I need to add that since I live with him my emotinal wellbeing is much better and he has been very supportive of my recovery ( I am going to therapy).
2006-12-22
02:19:08
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