I've always been told that, being born from a Christian mother. As soon as she died when I was 9, my life took a complete turn into HELL. My father couldn't handle it, at first and send me to live with friends. Then when I was 11 he wanted me to move back with him and adjust to his new live-in girlfriend who went out of her way to treat me like S H I T. She told me " No one loves you like a mother, and I'm NOT your mom. She even would take her grownass 20 and 24 yrs old daughters to dinner and a shopping spree while I'm left at home crying. You know what, none of that matters now. What DOES matter is that I'm struggling trying to find a decent job and go to school to be a massage therapist. It's just I find it so difficult to go through each day without her. Once your mom dies you never get over it! I have been suicidal but theres just something inside me that keeps pushing on through life. I don't feel like a stronger person because she's gone and I've been dysfunctional since.
2007-02-16
04:54:38
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mystique
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