What do you do when you want something so bad, but it's so wrong? What do you do when you regret the choices you've made in the past, and there is not turning back? They say ,"So you've made your bed now sleep in it." It's taking every thing in me to stay in it. I think to myself what would it be like to step out of it just for a little while. Only in my dreams. That will have to be enough, because in reality I never will. Why wont it go away? I try to ignore it, but it only grows stronger. I try to deny it, but it stairs me in the face. It has a grip on my soul, and it's roots run deep. I've tried to set myself free, but it bares down on me like armor on a knight. It's who I am, and I can't change it. No matter how hard I try or how "normal" I pretend to be. I hide it because I'm afraid. Afraid that others may know. Afraid of ridicull and hate. Afraid of hurting the ones who love me. Is it better to live a lie, or to rip out loved one's hearts to live in pure truth. Would that be too selfish? To want to live a happy life.
2006-09-01
03:52:26
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