I am really depressed... a lot. And I know why, but I can't really do anything about it. See, I am a teenager, and I am a lesbian, and I think I am transsexual, but I'm not sure. I was also sexually molested and sodomized by my older male cousin when I was 12. I am still in therapy for this, and I am going to have to see the cousin again in a month or two after not seeing him since that night. I have to see him, because I am going to have to spend some years in the same school as him starting next year. It was only shortly after that night that I realized my sexual orientation. Now, thinking back, I am not sure if I was predestined to be lesbian and transsexual, and the timing was either a coincidence or the event with my cousin triggered it; or if the thing my cousin did to me caused it entirely. The second possibility makes me feel as if I am living a lie.
I have not been able to bring myself to tell the therapist about my sexual orientation, and my depression from that.
2007-03-19
13:59:47
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