I had a miscarriage and subsequent D & C after 10 weeks of pregnancy. Since that time I feel very sad, like a complete failure as a woman, wife, and mom to my 1 year old. I have negative thoughts about my uterus, I feel like it's a polluted, barren wasteland. I'm upset with myself because I feel my body failed me and my child. I'm somewhat of a perfectionist so that probably plays into this as well.
To some degree I'm taking it out on my husband, being withdrawn and not wanting to talk to him. He's a very loving person and deserves more than what I can offer right now (affection and another child). I'm hating myself for having waited this long to try for a second baby (I'm 38) and recently started feeling like leaving my husband so that he can marry someone younger (he's 33) and have more children with someone else. When will these feelings pass?
2007-03-07
02:56:15
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