I have always wanted to be a pastor, but have always struggled with 'am I good enough' and 'money for my family and future'. So here I set, with debt, a nice house, a decent job that I don't like and have a hard time giving time to. I have two awsesome kids. My wife is seriously depressed after the second child and not doing well in many areas. I am extremely committed to the marriage. It seems that ever year my life gets worse and I attribute it to my not making the decision to go into ministry. My father was a pastor. I have been to counseling, psyciatrists, small groups, etc. Lately, especially at work, it seems that all relationships that I make fail miserabley. If you asked people closed to me, they would say I am great. I don't like hobbies, sports, TV. All I do is think... think.... think... I feel that I am the only person this way. Being a strong Christian makes is 100x harder because 'God is supposed to be enough'.
All I want to do is sleep and be alone.
2007-09-07
10:48:41
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