I feel like I'm drowining. My mom, brother and sister are all gone, and I live alone with my father. He loves me, but is always away drinking and smoking. He is lonely. The house is falling to pieces, and I have given up caring about it. The pets have died, there are maggots in our dishes, and I find i don't care. I've lost all interest in school. I skipped 8th, grade, gifted class, doing so well. and I no longer care. I have taken up so many activitys that I no longer have time to eat, or sleep, leave for school at 6:30 am and don't get home till 9 at night. The friends I make I chase away, and I am convinced that I somhow want to be miserable, but I don't. Constant thoughts of suicide, not to get attention, I just want to rest for once. But I don't want to give up. On anything, but I feel like I'm drowning in the air. And I've never told anyone that. Not untill you people, right now. What do I do? I want to get out. I want that feeling to go away. Can somone help?
2007-02-11
12:05:27
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Tsukiko27
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