do i have a chance to fit in? i'm scared?

Question

one way already given to me was trying to use a comp. with a faulty memory drive. this have me an edge on trying to understand.
it's been 3 days later, i still face the same problem.
the temporal lobe epilepsy allowed constant input, but untill now did not have a way to keep up.
my question is after 35 years of all this information only being put in ( sometimes without understanding why) where can i fit in? i have only just begun to know what being a human being is, but too much is assumed because of the way and quantity of information that 35 yrs. allowed to enter.
the best way so far i can explain was the flawed memory drive. this are only now beginning to start to work, that really doesn't help me, i still feel isolated, but now i feel too.
where would a person like me fit, if this is all that can be acheived? i never gained a degree, but the ideas are just there, now i understand being human.
can this kind of person ever be accepted, a flawed memory drive, but now feeling?

no, i am NOT a comp. I AM A LIVING PERSON.
I DO HAVE VERY GOOD DOCTORS.
THIS IS WHAT WAS EXPLAINED TO ME AS WHAT HAPPENS TO A PERSON WITH TEMPORAL LOBE EPELEPSY.
now, my question put differently.
after 35years of only input, with all i know and understand,
HOW IN THIS WORLD CAN ANY ONE JUST SEE, this was way beyond my controll, and now after all that time, without feeling like i can reach across to feel others even care.
i'm still stuck, because people assume i'm more than i really am.
that's why i asked, will i ever have a chance to just be who i am? just me?
people assume too much,
i don't think i stand a chance in *****.

Answer 1

YOUR FITTING IN A-OK , AND THATS ABOUT IT. THATS WHAT WE ALL ARE DOING !

Answer 2

You're only as old as you feel, 35 is nothing, some people make this realization in their 60's, where they've earned a nasty reputation, dont have enough money for retirement, and never had anybody care about them.

There are a few older folks in my classes at school, ones in his 50's, the other in his 40's , and i'll tell you they're the nicest, smartest people in my school, and they definetly have a future ahead of them and they know it.

Another way to think about it is some people at your age have lived their life already, they're married with kids, have a good paying job, and are miserable because they've accomplished all they wanted to in this lifetime. I knew someone like that until he became so depressed about it and ODed one night. He was a great man, six figure job 2 kids and everybody loved him.

Answer 3

Sounds like you are making progress. There are herbal protocols that help (sorry I don't have access to all my files, I am at my daughters) Compared to the incredible brilliance of man when he was first created we are all imbeciles. Do the best you can, and Praise YHVH.

Answer 4

If you're for real, see a doctor.
If you're a computer i can't help you.