I miss the past like crazy. I'm turning 15 very soon and I should be happy about it, but I'm not. I feel like crying. I miss swinging on the monkey bars, going for picnics with my family and doing all the things a child would do. I used to be really close to certain people in my family and now I only see them occasionally and that's just to rush after my little cousin. At Christmas, we don't play board games anymore or dance or make a fool of ourselves. Last Christmas, everyone but me sat doing nothing, while I played with my little cousin the whole time. It upsets me because there is nothing more important to me than my family. People in my year are doing drugs, having sex and so on and I feel like an alien. I'd never do drugs and wouldn't have sex yet, which SHOULD be the normal thing, but why do I feel like the odd one? I keep looking back at old photos and crying over them and watching old videos sometimes makes me think of suicide. I wouldn't actually kill myself, but why!?
2007-09-22
22:40:23
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