i was molested 2 when i was a child up until my teenage years and I can never feel better about myself, my soul has been destroyed. i am now 23 years old. d abuse went on 4 so long that i can't even remember when it started, i must have been 5 or 4. i wasn't raped, but my brother came 2 my bed naked and touched my private parts. :( i think this is same thing as being raped, u still feel very abused and used :( when i was younger, i didn't talk to any1 about this, only my mom knew this was happening to me, and she used to stay up at nit 2 protect me and she got beaten by my brother bcoz of this. :( my life is ruined and i've wanted to commit suicide many times, but everytime something inside me stopped me from doing that - i didn't want to hurt my family and especially my mom. i don't trust men bcoz even my dad was angry and violent person (although he never abused me), he hit me and threatened me 2 take out my brains :(. I haven’t been able to be a normal person bcoz of my past, I find it hard to socialise and I have few friends. When i was in holiday i met a wonderful guy who impressed me with his kindness and friendliness and he is my boyfriend now and i luv him sincerely. he is the reason that i'm still clinging to life, he is the only person (except my mom) that I trust. We made luv and I felt only luv and not abuse when making luv with him bcoz at 1st he was very gentle and told me that we can stop whenever I want to stop if I feel uncomfortable. But after a few weeks of being with him, one morning while we were in bed together, he did anal sex but this without asking me b4 if I accept him doing this, and that made me sad and depressed bcoz I felt used . I would like to know – is anal sex acceptable in a relationship or a form of abuse? I feel abused when my boyfriend does that bcoz it brings back horrible memories of my brother touching me there. Thank u
2006-11-15
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