HARD4U57,
WE MET ON THE NET, YOU WERE MISERABLE IN YOUR MARRIAGE, WE FELL IN LOVE, PLANNED TO MOVE AWAY AND START NEW LIVES TOGETHER. WHEN IT CAME TIME TO MOVE AWAY YOU LEFT WITH YOUR WIFE, YOU PICKED NANCY, NOT ME. IT'S BEEN 2 MONTHS SINCE I SAW YOU LAST, YOU KEEP MAKING EXCUSES FOR WHY YOU CAN'T MAKE TIME FOR ME. I HAVE MARRIED MEN FRIENDS THAT MAKE THE EFFORT TO DISCREETLY COMMUNICATE, WE PHONE AND EMAIL SEVERAL TIMES A WEEK, NEVER A PROBLEM. EVERY PERSON IN THE WORLD, MAN, WOMAN AND CHILD FIND WAYS FOR PRIVACY, WE ASSERT OURSELVES OR CONCEAL WHEN WE NEED OR WANT IT. BUT YOU SEEM TO BE THE EXCEPTION TO THE RULE. NO ONE'S WIFE IS BY THEIR SIDE 24 / 7. YOU REALLY DO MAKE PRIVATE TIME ALONE BUT YOU USE IT FOR CYBER SEX. WHEN YOU'VE A FEW MINUTES LEFT YOU WRITE ME ONE OR 2 LINES.. THAT'S ALL I GET, I'M SUPPOSED TO BE SATISFIED WITH THAT, SETTLE FOR THAT. THAT'S NOT RIGHT. IF YOU LOVED ME YOU WOULD HAVE MADE TIME FOR ME, I SHOULDN'T HAVE HAD TO ASK OR INSIST.
WHEN I WAS WITH YOU I WAS THE HIGHEST I'VE EVER BEEN, RIGHT NOW....... I'VE NEVER BEEN THIS LOW. I WAS 'QUEEN FOR A DAY' OR FOR A FEW DAYS ACTUALLY. I FEEL DISCARDED AND LOST. I CAN'T STAND A MINUTE MORE 1000 MILES APART FROM YOU SO I OFFERED TO FLY TO SEE YOU. YOU SAID "IT WOULD BE WASTE OF MY TIME AND MONEY". MY LOVE IS "A WASTE" NOW BUT YOU TELL ME YOU LOVE ME AND TO GIVE YOU TIME. YOU GET MY TIME, I GET EXCUSES. I'VE GIVEN EVERYTHING I CAN FOR YOU, SACRIFICED FOR YOU, SAVED FACE FOR YOU, LIED FOR YOU, KEPT YOUR SECRETS, YOU'VE YET TO DO ANYTHING FOR ME. I GET THE FEELING YOU'RE STRINGING ME ALONG. WITH YOUR HIGH SEX DRIVE IT'S JUST A MATTER OF TIME BEFORE YOU START GRATIFYING YOURSELF WITH THE LOCAL FLOOZIES AND BAR HOPPERS, IF YOU HAVEN'T ALREADY. I'M CONVENIENTLY 1000 MILES AWAY.
I DON'T FEEL LOVED, I DON'T FEEL VALIDATED. YOU SAY WE WILL BE TOGETHER BUT THE TIMETABLE KEEPS CHANGING AND NOW YOU'RE CONCEALING YOUR ADDRESS AND CONTACT INFO. I'VE GIVEN YOU MINE, THAT'S WHAT PEOPLE IN LOVE DO.......TRUST. YOU'RE HIDING THINGS FROM ME, THAT'S DISHONEST.
I'VE ALWAYS CHERISHED AND TREASURED YOU, AND ALWAYS WILL. YOU WILL NEVER FIND ANYONE WHO LOVES YOU MORE THAN I DO. I WAS JUST STARTING TO LOVE YOU AND YOU TOOK YOUR LOVE AWAY, FAR AWAY. I GAVE MY NOTICE TO LANDLORD WHEN YOU SAID WE WERE MOVING AND COULDN'T GET MY LEASE BACK WHEN YOU LEFT WITHOUT ME SO I LOST MY HOME. I'M THE FAMILY FOOL FOR FALLING FOR A MAN ON THE INTERNET AND YOU'LL NEVER KNOW THE DISASTERS THAT OCCURRED DURING MOVING. ALL MY BELONGINGS ARE IN STORAGE, MY LIFE IS IN LIMBO, MY SON CAN'T STAND TO BE AROUND HIS DEPRESSED MOTHER, I HAVE TO START ALL OVER AGAIN. BUT AT LEAST NANCY FEELS LOVED AND IS COMFORTABLE. IF IT WEREN'T FOR DAN AND HIS AMAZING ABILITIES TO COMFORT AND BE IN THE MOMENTS WITH ME I WOULD HAVE HAD A MELTDOWN. THAT'S A TRUE FRIEND, LOVING FRIEND. HE IS LIKE A BROTHER TO ME.
YOU SAY HOW MUCH YOU LOVE ME, THAT WE WILL BE TOGETHER BUT FOR THE LAST 2 MONTHS I'VE CRIED MYSELF TO SLEEP EACH NITE.. THAT'S NOT RIGHT. I AVOID GOING OUT IN PUBLIC, SEEING COUPLES MAKES ME TEARY-EYED. I CAN'T LISTEN TO MUSIC, THE LOVE SONGS GET ME TOO EMOTIONAL. SUDDENLY ALL MEN EITHER LOOK LIKE YOU OR REMIND ME OF YOU. IT CAN'T GET ANY MORE AGONIZING FOR ME, SO WITH MY LAST OUNCE OF COURAGE I'M GOING TO REACH OUT FOR / WITH LOVE, TO SOMEONE ANYONE. I DON'T WANT TO DO ANYTHING BEHIND YOUR BACK SO WE MUST PART.
YOU'RE 1000 MILES AWAY.......I CAN'T TOUCH YOU, FEEL YOU, SEE YOU, OR EVER TALK TO YOU. I'VE SLEPT ALONE FOR THE PAST 17 YEARS AND DON'T INTEND TO MUCH LONGER. WE BOTH JUST HAD ANOTHER BIRTHDAY, WE DON'T HAVE TIME TO WASTE. I NEED LOVE, I NEED HUMAN TOUCH, I CRAVE EMBRACE AND INTIMACY. I'VE GOT ALOT OF LOVE TO GIVE AND AN OUNCE OF COURAGE LEFT TO GO IN SEARCH OF LOVE. THERE'S MEN OUT THERE WILLING TO GIVE OF THEIR TIME, ALL I HAVE TO DO IS FIND ONE.
LOVING YOU.
^._.^ PAULA
2006-09-04
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