I'm a gay male. I say gay even though I am also attracted to females, because I have a stronger attraction to men. I have a desire to love someone and have a boyfriend, but I can't, and it tears me apart. I want to be with someone, spend time with them, love them, take care of them....but I can't, because I will never 'come out.' I know that for a fact. My religion is against it, my family is against it, and even if they weren't I'd be ashamed to admit I was gay. I am embarrassed that I like others of my own sex- but I didn't choose it, that's how I was born. People say it stems from childhood trauma, abuse, or whatever, but i've never experienced anything like that. I can remember the attraction since as far back as I can remember. Anyway, I'm just feeling really lonely and heartbroken that I will never be able to love like I want to, and I feal like screaming and crying, but I never do. It's something I will always have to hide as long as I live, and that really depresses me. **
2006-07-27
21:30:38
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