i hate that your always right there.
and i know that you dont even care,
when i try not to look,
i end up doing it anyways, just to see in your eyes everything from me that you took
i can see that your pretty content
while im here, emotionally destroyed,
trying to vent
with all your others, you are still friends,
but for some reason with me,
the silence never ends.
from the begenning it was probably a lie,
all the things you said,
how you said you were "shy"
as much as i would like to say that i was expecting this,
my heart had no idea it was taking such a risk.
you told me you wanted me to be your way out,
to tell you to stop with the bad ways,
even if it means to shout.
i'd hate it when you would say i was your little "reward"
you dont know how many things that destroyed
now its so stupid that the only reason you talk to me,
is to get money to pay off your stupid fee
and dont try to say that theres nothing you can do
cus theres a choice whether or not to continue
to continue with your stupid lifestyle of drugs.
its nice to know that you chose them over my hugs.
i accualy thought you were sincere,
that day you told me youve been waiting all year
just to be with me and hold me tight,
wow, yeah right.
i dont know why i accualy lead myself to belive,
that from you i will recive
your whole heart on a tray
every second of every day.
your stupid and you were a waste of time
your worth to me, no more than a dime.
but the worst part is that,
i dont regret any of this,
i dont take any of it back.
it made me what i am today,
im stronger either way
i had to go throught pain and tears,
but in the end i conquered my fears.
2007-08-02
00:18:17
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