Four months since i saw her,divorced as of two weeks ago.Im 44 and feel like my life has hit a brick wall.So much regret and shame for not being the man and husband i was capable of being.I had blinders on throughout our two year marriage.She just can't open up and give it another try.Just one more chance,but it won't come and i feel so sorry for her and myself,because i am to blame for losing her.I know this will haunt me forever,i am convinced of it.Letting go is not possible,as much as i know its nessesary,i can't stop thinking of what could have been.I have been to therapy and doctors.But in the end it all comes back to this feeling of guilt and shame and rejection.I pray for it to end,i pray for piece but it gets worse everyday..This dark could is hanging over me and my soul.
2007-06-15
10:58:50
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Rodger M
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Marriage & Divorce