Once was a Christian- been out for 5 years and am now visiting a church with my mom. Every Sunday I always get this feeling in my gut, I get goose bumps, my eyes start to tear up, and I get an overwhelming feeling of guilt. I know God wants me back, I know I could do great things for the Lord, but I keep siining even if I’m in debt, even if I feel like I can’t handle it anymore, and even when I swear I’ll never get high again! I always do.
I want to return to GOD, I feel like a little girl that just wants crawl back into her daddy’s lap to tell him how sorry she is and how she will never do it again, then hug and kiss because daddy is going to make everything ok! But I know that as soon as I get back home, my friends will call and want to stop by and I’ll be in the same hole again.
So what do I do? I don’t want to lose my friends because I won’t do the same things as they do, but I'm not strong enough to hang out without doing it.
2007-06-04
05:22:05
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