I've finally gotten over doubting reality, mostly. I have my moments, but it's pretty much under control.
However, now I can't stop thinking about dying. Not being dead -I don't know if there's anything after, I don't think there's a way to know, and I don't really care right now- but the actual process of dying.
Hoping I'll just die in my sleep, so I won't have to feel myself shutting down and deal with the godawful knowledge that I am going to stop being. I will simply stop. I wasn't, I was, I won't be.
Normally I deal with it in the way I imagine most people deal with it: I don't completely accept it as real, or really think about it.
I have enough problems as it is with my reality instability and would really like to get over this.
2007-04-26
15:52:01
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