I do not consider myself as suicidal but whenever I am in a high place, cliff top, tall building I have the most frustrating dialog with myself that goes a bit like this "Irrational, irrational, I am being irrational. I am not afraid to die. I am panicking because I think I might lose control and throw myself over. I will not bend to my fear. I have to face my fear. NO! I don't want to...at this point I experience the most annoying panic attacks and I rationalize to myself that the reason is that subconsciously I am deeply affected by divorce, lack of fulfillment etc. The rest of my life is very good. I am learning that all I have to do is give and give and give - for no other reason other than to honour my higher purpose. I just can't understand why I have this phobia as I am feeling that as I focus on love and peace then those kinds of negatives should be dissolving. Does anyone know what I mean and how I can address the whole issue.
2007-02-23
16:45:17
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ohojungo
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Psychology