In a nutshell, I have always had confidence issues. These were exaggerated by the fact that I am a fraternal twin, and my sister is my exact opposite; that is, overly pushy, domineering, et cetera. I have always shared a tiny bedroom with her, so I have no space of my own.
Because of our differentiation issues, I have a lot of trouble accepting myself as a female and acting accordingly. I just recently stopped consciously emulating boys. That's an issue.
I'm also scared to pursue anything new because I'm afraid that people will stop liking me for it, my sister will mock me in to the dirt, and my father -who supports me no matter what, this is my specific issue- won't completely approve and that will just kill me. I have no real interests or personality and am constantly seeking the approval of others. I have adapted my tastes in clothing and music to be minimally offensive to other people. I constantly want people to excuse me for breathing. I feel like a burden all the time...
2006-11-26
17:26:04
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