Hey honey… How are you? Wow I got to talk to you tonight…It was awesome! My mom said she would fly the kids and me down if your parents could buy your one-way ticket. They might even have to take us to the airport my mom said she would rent us a car… It’s like 450 per person but your parents would only have to pay like 200doallrs. I feel like it is a very bad idea for me to get on the road by myself with two kids. What if I had a flat, get lost, fall asleep 17 hours is a lot honey. I want to see you graduate more than anything but I am not sure how we are going to do it. I miss you more than ever right now you have no idea. I am getting all your letters. Honey, I am so proud of you. You are doing so well. You have worked really hard at all of this! Dan, I did not want to write a letter to you like this but it’s killing me. I have to ask you on last time. Well ever since you went to San Antonio there has been a dramatic difference. No one in your family has even called to check on me, the kids, etc. I have called your Mom- Dad several times to give them the most up-to-date info that I have and there is a weird awkward silence. I am not sure what was said. Dan I feel the most important thing is that our relationship be set on a foundation of truth. Never got the $100 and you have never inquired about it either. If there is anything you would like to tell me let me know. Cause I have a feeling of uneasiness I have went out of my way for you and your family to be greeted with an awkward silence I feel there is “PLAN” like you always talk about witch they are fully aware of. For what other reason would the roles change so much. I have to be real the way you left me makes me feel uneasy. The night before you left you literally rolled over and went to sleep you made no attempts to show me any intimacy. Now I know we were at my moms I did not expect you to nail me then or anything but I mean kissing, talking, etc. I hope your not writing all these letters to me to keep me baited or because you think that is the expectation. I want to know your TRUE feelings because our last moments before you left reflected other wise. I cannot continue to be engaged in this sabotaging type relation. Dan if your heart desires one thing and your showing me society’s expectation be honest with your self. I love you more than anything and made a promise to you on September 14 2005 that I plan on keeping. However if you’re miserable and your expressing that to your family let me know. I want nothing more than you to be completely happy. I called the military pay line today to find our that you requested I not be a power of attorney to be eligible to find out about your pay if needed that I guess is when all this clicked, I am in a financial crisis, I love you Dan. Love Court
2006-10-30
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