I'm just curious if anyone is similar to me. I don't expect to find an answer, exactly.
Since I can remember, I've wanted to be non existent. Not dead. There is a difference. I don't have an active wish to die, just not any real desire for life.
I have no desire like most people for a family, a boy friend, sex, children, friends, etc...
No matter what I am doing, I always feel bored. Technically I have bipolar disorder and I take meds, but this underlying theme has been with me all my life. I do not believe in God and I don't get pleasure from anything. I've been to doctors, read books, done everything. Sports, TV shows, movies, owning things.... none of it interests me. The older I get, the more bored and apathetic. I spent most of my time sleeping. Intellectually I have interests, such as semiotics, but if I found out I was dying of a terminal disease, for instance, I wouldn't really care.
I'm not technically depressed right now, or if I am it is exogenous. Theories? Thank you.
2006-07-19
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