Never feel happy....?

Question

I'm just curious if anyone is similar to me. I don't expect to find an answer, exactly.
Since I can remember, I've wanted to be non existent. Not dead. There is a difference. I don't have an active wish to die, just not any real desire for life.
I have no desire like most people for a family, a boy friend, sex, children, friends, etc...
No matter what I am doing, I always feel bored. Technically I have bipolar disorder and I take meds, but this underlying theme has been with me all my life. I do not believe in God and I don't get pleasure from anything. I've been to doctors, read books, done everything. Sports, TV shows, movies, owning things.... none of it interests me. The older I get, the more bored and apathetic. I spent most of my time sleeping. Intellectually I have interests, such as semiotics, but if I found out I was dying of a terminal disease, for instance, I wouldn't really care.

I'm not technically depressed right now, or if I am it is exogenous. Theories? Thank you.

For the people who are giving me advice- I said, I have tried everything. I sponsor a child in Guatemala with what I get on disability. I have lived on my own since I was a minor and supported myself. I donate blood. I volunteer to help the environment and help the aquarium and for a while volunteered helping handicapped adults learn to read.

All just.... blah.

And intellectually I am grateful for what I have. It's not that I particularly despise my life. It's that I can't think of a single scenario in which anything would be of interest to me and I am wondering what causes that.

Lets put it this way. I only sleep now because I have spent 2 decades looking for meaning, volunteering and helping. From the moment I could walk.

Nada.

Anyways, thanks for trying.

Answer 1

I think you might find a solution by talking to ur doctor. Meds can help generate the chemicals needed to find stimulation in day to day life.

Answer 2

First thing - I understand that u r not in need to earn a living- right.? So u have the money to do what u want and spend ur time sleeping. Naturally u will not be interested in anything. Go out and see the world. There are people who don't have 2 meals a day, no place to live, no work, no medical care etc., People are fleeing countries because of wars, dying because of Tsunami, earthquakes, floods etc. All these people don't complain being desire less. The best cure for u would be - help people - not just monetarily but more in a personal way. Go to a hospital, orphanage, help those people in some way. You will feel the difference. Go ahead. Try it if u want to be true to yourself.

Answer 3

I,unfortunately,know exactly what you mean.I have come to the conclusion that Genetics is to 'blame' if that's the correct word.One thing--you gotta snap out of it.I did.I packed a bag,went to the airport and got on a plane to Athens,Greece.IT was wild..leaving on a Monday 3pm and after a day or two..I arrived on a Tuesday 9am????Still trying to wrap my head around that one. Be a Tramp. What a life...Have you travelled? Opened a whole new can of worms for me...saw and saw and saw...ever been wacked in the Great Pyramid? Ever drank pints of Guinness for wedding lunch in Ireland?With your new Wife......your saviour? A USA citizen of Native American heritage with genius IQ mixing it up with an Australian of Irish descent with a completely skewed vision of everything concerning life (as we know it Jim) and thought that Americans were those people on TV. I could babble on forever and then you need a babel-fish...If nothing's keeping you from life,you need to replace it with something. It's Not easy but you will prevail.Cos I said so. TRAVEL TRAVEL TRAVEL. You need to believe..like I do now.

Answer 4

I'm bored all the time too, but I don't think that it is a bad thing. It just motivates me to find better ways to spend my time.

Maybe everyone in the world is equally as bored as you, but they just don't complain about it because it doesn't bother them.

Let's say that you engage in the same activity that another person is doing at the same time. How do you know if they are feeling the same or different level of interest in the activity? It's like asking if another person perceives the color red the same way as you do. You can never know.

Answer 5

Wow, that's....not fun. I have a very good friend who is bipolar and they finally hit on the right medication combination for her. She's always telling me now that she "loves" her Lamictal. She's back to her old cheerful self again. I was with her through the whole diagnosis, treatment, and recovery, so I know she's better now. If you aren't on it already, talk to you doctor. It could be the key to your happiness, who knows.

Answer 6

oh, my goodness. Life is so beautiful. Go out and mingle with other people. I know you are a "Loner". And I was a loner, too. But, I have to keep myself busy with so many things to do. If you want, I wish to be your friend. Come on, life must go on. Think positive and without knowing it, you are there full of hopes and dreams. Please do keep in touch, ok? Take care and GOD BLESS US ALL.

Answer 7

I have an excellent answer, try taking recreational drugs on a regular basis for a temporary euphoric artificial happiness, try weed or coke, dont drink alcohol, or try kinky sex, maybe you dont know yourself that well, however I understand how you feel, lots of people do, but we dont whine about it, we get HIGH!

Answer 8

well ive been deeply depressed. ive even thought of suicide. what made me change was my outlook on life. i would sugggest looking for the meaning of life. want success. exercise read books and be soicial. also be greatful with what you have.

when you search for the meaning of life, ironically there will be meaning in your life.