Ever since I was 13 or so, I have had a high sex drive, well, my body wanted it really bad. I found that I could control it through masturbating, which went from once a day to up around 5 times.
From when I was young, I was shown God and believed, as time passed I saw things and did things that led to me falling away. Basically through my entire teens I did what felt good, well, mostly. I never had Sex or anything, but I did other things to prevent myself from wanting it, just because I felt like I shouldn't. I never did anything with a girl, just me.
A few months ago I started reading the bible, and things started changing without me realizing it. Now, I find myself fighting it. I see masturbating as something that isn't glorifying to God, yet, after a couple days I lose my mind. And then I do it once to relieve the thoughts. Then I feel really bad afterwards cause I think its bad before, during, and after. Yet I still did it.
2007-11-12
08:16:22
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