If this comes out sounding sort-of incoherent, I'm not doing it on purpose, but it may be a reflection of how I'm feeling at the moment--extremely confused. I'm gonna try and present the scenario in a way that won't leave you guessing, and I hope some of you will have some helpful feedback. Ok here goes:
Recently I've been having alot more contact with this particular girl, who I have known since last year, but didn't really talk to that often. Now that we are working closely together, on a regular basis, we've started up a friendship of sorts. The thing is, I know she's a lesbian, but I don't think she knows I know.
Because of this, I'm having a hard time reading some of her actions. I know lesbians are not attracted to every girl they see, the same in heterosexual relationships, but I feel like she's flirting with me all the time.
She's always around me, she's become more physical lately, she always suggests we hang out, do things together, or even as a group. She says she like bothering me, and she likes to mention alot that we have alot in common. Sometimes I catch her looking at me, or maybe I'm convincing myself that. When you turn your head and someone else's head turns all of a sudden, on more than one occasion, I think it's safe to say, they're looking at you.
Anyway, when we speak to each other we lock eyes for some time. She has asked for my number. I guess what is confusing me, is that I feel like she's dropping subtle hints. I feel she's being subtle because she thinks I don't her preference, and it really annoys me, cuz I wish she would be upfront about it. And when she drops these subtle hints, I always gather that she's trying to feel me out, see if I have some sort of interest in women as well. I always laugh them off because I don't wanna make her uncomfortable.
In one aspect I feel sorry for her because she doesn't feel comfortable coming out to me, but in the next instance, it's so frustrating, because, even though it's none of my business, I feel like if she's interested romantically, she should say it and stop beating around the bush...that's if she's interested. I guess that's where you come in and tell me what you think.
Today as I was saying goodnight to her, she was trying to initiate a conversation with me, and she jokingly brushed me off, so I stopped and asked her what was on her mind, and she was like nothing I was just gonna say and blah blah blah, we talk about school and stuff. She started getting really fidgety like she was kind-of embarassed that she had somehow let on that she may have been feeling me.
In summation, I really like her, I can't see myself having a sexual relationship with her...actually the thought of it right now is sort-of nauseating, but I enjoy her company and I can see us being really close friends, but I feel like I can't do it if she's playing around. I just need insight. Do you think she's attracted and how do you think I can handle this situation? Any input would be appreciated and even if you don't have any comment, thanks for listening to me ramble on. :)
2006-09-26
15:28:41
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