All the motivation I have had left dissapeared over the years. Even when I want to do something I don't do it. You can call me lazy but nobody has ever called me lazy before. Whenever I'm asked to do a task I perform it effciently. When I want to do something for my own benefit, I don't do it.
For example, I study but I don't study to my potential. I used to be an honors student with an A average in middle school but now as a high school senior, I'm an average student. So average that I don't have a distinguishing characteristic colleges would consider me taking me in for.
I think this has something to do with kids and even an adult calling me retarded, insane and psycho. They said such things because I used to be in Special Ed. I eventually believed my future was going to be in a mental hospital and gave up trying.
I also want to do is learn an instrument, exercise, get my driver's permit, write a novel, learn to draw and possibly more.
How do I get my motivation back?
2006-11-02
13:58:49
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themuse411
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