It seems like ever since I entered college, I have not stopped being jealous of other people's success. In high school, I was always successful, at the top of my class, a top musician, and constantly sparking jealousy in those around me. I purposely chose to go to a large university to see the real world and to deflate my ego a bit. After entering college, I have gotten so-so grades, stopped practicing music, and cannot pick a major. I used to define myself by my success, and I'm lost without it.
What's worse is now I start trying to copy the success of others, but it isn't working. When I fail, I feel worthless and stupid, and angry at those who succeeded instead of me. I just want to do really well at something like I used to and be comfortable with myself again.
2006-12-15
11:02:07
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