I really wonder at times why I'm so sad all the time. It all started when I moved in '04. I didn't miss the old place though - I was kinda glad that I moved from the old apartment that had mold right in the corner where my bed was. For the past years I've been living here, I've never been really happy. I always fake my happiness towards people because I don't want to bring them down by being sad. In school, I was made fun of a lot and teased. I of course, was hurt, and I was constantly angry, but didn't do anything about it (and unfortunately, I hate how I lash out at my family when they don't deserve it on the days that don't go well). I had low self-esteem at the time, but when it continued, my self-esteem and trust in people decreased. I can never be happy and have that enthusiastic feeling that I really want back. Also, I don't know if this has to do anything with it, but I noticed that I'm really lethargic in everything - thinking, moving around, making choices...(continued below)
2007-09-29
08:25:47
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