I take three sleeping pills a night, and every night two headache pills. It helps somewhat, but now I have been thinking about taking more of those pills. It would be easy to OD, and even easier to slit my wrists. I am alone at my house for nearly 2 hours a day.
I'm talking to someone, but I can't completely open up to them. I'm tired of trying to open up to people. I feel as if everyone would lie.
Honestly, I don't want to feel better. I've been this way so long, I don't trust change. What if I do get better, and is there a better? I have no friends in school, I'm too shy. I sit in the back, crying or not I go unnoticed.
I was sexually and physically abused when I was younger. Its hard now, I don't know what to do. There are so many lies, no one can be trusted. I'm starting to hate the world.The only reason I am not dead yet is because I'm afraid of hell.
Should I go on antidepressents? Please be serious, though I bet some of you will be mean, always someone like that.
2007-08-28
14:05:24
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lightriderangel
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