Do I care about others, or is it all about me?
I think, its all about me. I can tell. You wanna know how? Ill tell you how.
Im felt no closeness when my dad had his surgery with his knee. I felt no real happieness when my newest nephew was born. I have little appreciation for what my mom does for me. When I have a conversation with someone, I change the subject back to something related to me. I have no real pain for the suffering that happens everyday in this world. Im a ******* self centered jerk whos obsessed with himself. I seem...unapproachable, lame, shy, bland, stupid and fake. My friend in providence who thinks the world of talking to me, and misses me very much- I almost never make attempts to contact her. Shes always the one calling me, always. My one friend that works with me in this resturaunt is pending on getting fired. I dont want her to go, but then again I really dont care. Every damn person I talk to, I cant make correct conversation with them.
Why am I so horrible like this? I want to change, but I dont know how. I feel really ashamed for being so ignorant and it bothers me so much that deep down, Im a hurting puppy. Everytime I wake up and realize Im like this, I get these deep heartwrenching feelings to my stomach.
Am I lazy? I dont know...I just need some advice because this has been bothering me for some time now. Please help me?
Also, how can I discover the real me?
2007-01-14
17:12:08
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