I have known my brother in law (husband’s bro) for ages. There has always been a cozy, cuddlyfeeling between us; recently for reasons it would be too long to explain, I have fallen in love with him and, I believe, him with me (al-though we have never discussed with, so let’s assume it is just a one-sided thing).
I have tried to hide my feelings for ages now; I know I am not very good at it but I try my best whenever we are together (with our spouses and rest of family).
Now I learn we will spend Xmas together with the rest of the family; spending 2/3 days with BIL sleeping in the next room (alone, because things with his wife are not good) and me sleeping with my husband.
I don’t think I can do this and I am freaking out already.
I know it will be disaster . The pain of knowing he is in the next room at night, wanting each other and having to bottle it all up for whole 3 days …
have thought of telling my husband to go alone, but spending xmas alone and without my kids ???
2007-11-18
22:12:06
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