I'm a wreck and have been for the last 8 months.
I am completely in love with a woman who can not return that love.
I have cried rivers upon rivers of tears for this woman.
She is a sweet and kind and gentle creature however one that is out of my grasp.
She can go out at nite and live it up and I doubt she ever thinks of me during that time frame.
She has played mind games with me and manipulated me, she is not a complete princess as she certainly has her flaws.
At this point she uses me as an ego boost, i was told this by a friend but just couldn't grasp the concept and part of my mind still won't allow me to grasp that.
I have given SO MUCH to this woman and she has literally offered nothing in return except a dozen roses and 2 nites in a hotel and that is it.
I went to Cleveland to see her and she could not even come to the airport to see me. I ended up paying for a hotel that nite and taking the greyhound back home in the morning. I don't know if I can ever forgive her for that. Her reasoning for that is that she says she got an email from some woman telling her that she should leave me alone because i'm already involved with this mystery person.
She claims she went to NYC around March 17 I don't buy it as far as my tracking software is concerned she never even left.
I have been there for this girl whenever she needed me ALWAYS!
I bought her daughter a birthday gift because I care about this woman.
I rode the nasty *** greyhound to see her which was a 8 hour trip both ways.
I took the train to go see her and she had me wait at the station from 230am till 11am the next day. She could have picked me up if she wanted to...but she really didn't want to.
She acts like she is this innocent freaking damsel in distress but she is nothing more then a manipulative machine. And for the LIFE of me I just don't understand my allure and love for her.
She has a great laugh and can be sweet but she gives me almost nothing.
I'm now catagorized as "one of her best guy friends" and that insenses me and incites me to no end.
Why in the hell am I so drawn to this woman, what is my major malfunction and how in the hell do I distance myself from her without completely falling to pieces to the point where it effects my job and my interpersonal relationships with other people.
She stresses me so much that the only coping mechanism I have is to not eat. So effectively i'm wasting away into nothingness.
She does call every morning when she gets to work and I just don't get it...I know she would be very uncomfortable and probably shocked if I met someone else. She makes little digs like "so how many girls did you sleep with this weekend" and things like that.
I feel that she doesn't want me but doesn't want anyone else to have me either.
I just don't know what to do at this point, I do LOVE her with all my heart and I just don't know what to do.
Have you EVER been in a similar type of relationship and what did you do? Did you drop the hammer so to speak and let the other person know how you REALLY feel the good and the not so good thoughts? Do you just walk away? What did you do??
I am a strong man however this one really has a hold of me really badly.
I want her back in my arms
Any suggestions at all would be fantastic
2007-08-18
21:07:57
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