When I was young, starting at six, I was put in numerous foster homes, treatment centers and group homes by my mother who was convinced that I was mentally ill. After years of rejection by her, hurt was replaced with anger and rage and I began to prove her right. I would blow up for no apparent reason and get so mad and frustrated that I would become a danger to myself and others. Medication just seemed to make it worse and trust me, I been on the best of them.
Over the years after stoping the medication I learned to control my rage. I became an active member of society, had a child and graduated college. I even told my mother I forgive her, although that is not true. I just knew it was what was expected of me, to forgive and move on. But inside I am still so angry. I find myself envious of those who had a normal childhood, I can't maintain stable relationships, and I find myself getting angry at my daughter alot.
I want to move on, be happy with my life, but don't know how. Help!!!
2007-08-06
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