I have outer body experiences a lot and I am able to see, touch, and talk to spirits. This happens 3-4 times every night. It is driving me crazy with being able to feel the cold touch of a spirit. I am now afraid of the dark and afraid to go to sleep at night. I grew up with my family treating me like an outsider and I had a very rough life and always held in pain and hid my feelings from others because I had no one to trust and felt as if no one loved me until I grew close with my boy friend's mother. I trusted her and told her a lot of things from my past and how I grew up. I started having outer body experiences when I was a kid but they got stronger in October of 2005 shortly after my son was born. That was also when I started communicating with the other side. When I pull myself out of my experiences, I sometimes lay in my bed crying. My boy friend does not want to hear it because he feels that he can't do anything about it but all I need is comfort. I only have one friend and she now thinks I am crazy. I told my boy friend's mother about it right after an experience because I felt that I can talk to her about anything, but she laughed at me while I was upset and crying and called me crazy. She started throwing every hurtfull thing about my past at me and told me how she thinks my life sucks and how I don't have anything. To hear her say the things that she said to me really hurts and brought even more tears to my eyes and all she did was laugh in my face. Then she told me that she would hate to leave me because I was so upset and down. She always told me that she loves me like a daughter and treated me like one until I told her about my experiences. Then she called all her friends and family members and told them how crazy she thinks I am. After she left I really broke down in tears and tried to end my life to end the pain. I regret opening up to her about my life and what I've been through. Now I am living a life where everyone thinks I am crazy except my boyfriend but he does not want to talk about it. I am 23 years old with a 3 year old daughter and a 14 month old son. I love them more than anything and I know that when I die, they will be effected, but I have so much pain built up inside and I am tired of it. I want to live for my kids but I don't want to keep hurting. I need a friend, someone to understand and listen to me and keep my mind on the right track. I feel bad that I made an attempt to kill myself without thinking of how my kids would feel. How can I ever forgive myself for commiting such a selfish act. There was too much pain built up at the moment with no one to turn to. Please pray for me.
2007-01-09
15:30:32
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Lady Tee
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