I am 39 yrs. young, but feel much older. I have had a not so good life, can't remember ever really being happy. I have just been living my life for others. Now I am at the point where I can't deal with life. I have had hard times getting a job; I always end up with shitty bosses and co-workers. I live in Maryland, but I am from SC. I don't have any real friends; the ones I thought I had were fake. I'm tired of being used. I do have a place to lay my head, but I still feel homeless. I have been in a shelter before and would love to try one again, but they have changed so much. I would have to fear for my life now. I'm trapped! I just want to end it all. When I hear of people killing themselves, I think, "how can they do that", now I know. There's only so much a person can take. Everyone is different. My life is just a big mess! A mess that I have allowed to get bigger and bigger. Now I feel that the only way out would be to leave this confussed world. My thoughts are not even reflected.
2006-10-16
03:24:30
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