i am 21 and already it seems like life is becoming too much, even though i live quite an easy life compared to most. i feel like in many ways i have been lucky, but this luck is wasted on me. i have contemplated suicide, however can't go through with it due to picturing my mother at my funeral. i do have a lot of friends, but have never had a girlfriend. many girls make fun of me, the few i have gotten close with have then been ashamed afterwards, and i just feel extremely unattractive both inside and out. i have been feeling worse and worse since my father past away in 2004, however am too embarassed to seek help if this is in fact depression. i feel like i am a weak person for feeling this way, and maybe this is just the way everyone is? my lack of confidence has caused me to feel extremely nervous about any social encounter. i have met one girl who i liked and thought reciprocated this feeling, however have since found out she only wants to be friends.
2007-01-27
10:52:56
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