I feel like I never want to engage in sexual intercourse ever. Being a virgin until I die sounds fine with me.
To me, sex is overrated. I feel like I hate it. Despite that, I talk dirty around my friends & love dirty jokes. When I grow up, I want to marry and have kids but the sex part scares me. I'm afraid of pain, bleeding, STDs and unwanted pregnancy. My father is a minister who taught me to wait til I'm married.
What if I lose it to the wrong guy? What if he uses me? What if I'm not married when I have sex? What if I'm raped?
I want to be in love when I experience my first time. That seems unlikely. My parents told me that all guys just want is sex and thats it. How am I supposed to believe that there is someone out there made for me?
I hope to adopt when I'm a lot older than I am now. Not going through the miracle of child birth because I'm afraid of sex seems weird to me though. But, I told myself that the child could grow up to go against my beliefs and such.
2007-01-11
11:28:09
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darkskinnedxbeauty
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