What do i do?
Current mood: exhausted
Category: worthless Life
Well once again i ****** up but this time its alittle harder than before. I have been told from friends of mine who know me, how much growth ive accomplished, and its feels good . But i got this hatefull attitude one day and acted on it with thinking, ****** with other peoples emotions, its wrong shouldnt have done it, by the way im sorry, anyway well i lied about what i did , well i made up a version that i thought was more presentable, still lieing though, and told someone i really care about my fabricated story. The past is really srewed up because of the same type of bullshit and lots of other ****, that really i dont want to discuss, and it caused me to lose that person. one day after a year and several long months the good lord crosses our paths and my dreams came true. Everthing is great actually perfect, alll those days and nights of wishing on stars ect.. and its comes true so i **** it up by not being honest about some petty ****, if spoken in truth, would not have amounted anything. but i lied. This person i love now dosnt believe anything i say, my own fault, dosnt want me to be apart of her life and now ive lost the best thing that ever happend to me. I can barly sleep,cant eat, whats funny is i did it all to myself how ignorant is that. I know in my heart that she is the one for me, the one i would do anything for, it makes me happier doing things for her than for myself. basicly i would like to know from anyone who would like to share their thoughts, what can i do to prove myself, i know the answer to that. still feed back is greatly appreciated cause im lost. Do i deserve a chance? Ive came along way, and i will continue to move on that direction. Can people really change?????? Because i dont want to hurt her anymore it kills me. What can i do?????????????????
2007-02-25
13:19:39
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charles nobody
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