I avoid mirrors.The only mirror I don't avoid is one I have set up with special lighting that makes me look o.k.Even then I won't look in the mirror if I have my contacts in.They have to be out because I hate the way I look.I'm so confused because a lot of people tell me I'm pretty,cute,hot,attractive,adorable...but I've had others tell me I'm ugly and not attractive.Growing up I was teased a lot for my big nose,and it was ruining me so my parents paid for a nose job.I was 15.I am now 30 and I still feel ugly.I haven't had a real relationship for 4 years and I just feel like I've wasted so much of my life hating the way I look, but I can't help it when I have to face myself in the mirror everyday. About 1 year after the nose job a guy I liked made a comment that my body was hot but he kept looking at my face and wanted to puke.That was a long time ago but it's still with me completely.How do I face my looks?I hate that I focus on it so much, but it makes me not want to go out,etc.HELP
2007-06-04
17:24:29
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michelle_bell_ie
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