One night I laid in bed with these thoughts pacing threw my mind…So I thought Id write them down… Tell me what you honestly think...
I lay…& I linger…linger for the day I'll wake…not ever knowing…wanting to breath…wanting to live, feel, see….see what's in front of me. Not noticing what's further on of me….needing…wanting for more then what is lacking….I achieve, communicate, distribute & wonder what will it convey? What will proceed…I know but with an instant I seem to not care? I sense why? What's the purpose? I suppose we will in no way truly know until it's the end….n all your thoughts n all of your predicaments will just fade away….forgotten & mislaid… then what? What then will we be? What it may be…is what terrifies me….sometimes I think…do I want to identify it? Or would I rather live this bitter world of pit…This day n time…I do not know…but what I display is what I am….how I am…how I feel….I am true….I don't know how to be anything else…but why is it that I don't feel well passable…why do I do the things I do….So many unanswered questions….I will remain n I will fight….until the day comes…were I am gone….with what I require…& what I am….till the day comes….I am…this….why….I hate to marvel…That's just life….I regret so much….If I could go back I would…Each time I shut my eyes before I doze...I try to envision how I would be today…if I had changed my reckless ways...Morning comes…& I open up my eyes…& see what is left…of this soul of mine….
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This writing is not because I am depressed...it's not because I don't understand life...This is my thoughts when I get so much **** built up on me...to were I begin to loose it...it's basically a suicide note...Every now & then I feel this way...But I know it is just a faze...I love to express these feelings....I don't want sympathy answers...All I want is what you think of it....Thank you =]
2006-12-10
08:14:56
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