ok i'll just be real I'm rude,selfish,judgemental,i make fun of others,I laugh at things i shouldnt laugh at,i steal & lie,I curse like a sailor ect. my resume of evil is loaded.Then theres this complete other side of me,I can be really loveing & compasionate,i can feel other peoples emotions so intensly that i cry for them almost like i can feel it too.Today i went to church (first time in a LONG time) I went because it was my bday yesterday & i was greatful for my family & friends & all i have(and also because i feel icky inside).Church was amazing i felt connected& just weird but in a good way.That lasted for awhile but when i got home i had to do something i didnt want to.My mom is disabled because shes morbidly obese & has arthritis & i had to wipe her rear.& i felt this meaness in me coming back where i wanted to yell & throw a fit & blame her for doing this to herself.My Q is how can i change?Why am i like this?Do i need therapy,God? Suggestions Plz? Maybe a prayer or two?
2007-08-12
08:26:46
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