How to deal with Envy? lack confidence & Anger ? My childhood lack of understanding, love and goods in life..As grown up in 20ies
doing something i like such as traveling, shopping seems like bad things coz i felt don't deserve and will be blame as bad child..
Sometimes I felt so unsafe if i am not cuddling myself alone in bed and dreaming...
I persistantly deny myself to the present moment/Felt wrong to be happy now..and pay for it later... I always feel lost like i dont' know who i am or what kind of greatest goal i should aim for... , don't accept the aspect of myself now (friends, job , place of living) i always think "this is not yet who i am "... and i felt embarass to do as normal people would do like go clubbing, participating some events and traveling with friends...If i did that, it must come from some purposes but i won't be relaxing in such crowded and situations..
My relationship now with family is broken because i decided to do so....
Thanks for reading
2007-04-05
02:43:56
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