I ran into my ex at a party at the weekend. We chatted and danced all night and both agree we had a wonderful time. She said I could stay at hers and I was glad to, but nothing happened, though my heart was beating like a hammer. The next day I already noticed I was looking at other women. Later she told me she was already seeing someone new.
I broke the relationship off before, because I felt I didn't truly love her and I wanted someone more creative and maybe less extroverted. That "X factor" wasn't there. But I wonder whether I was looking in the wrong place for the fulfilment my life seemed to lack - I know I could take more responsibility for how full and enjoyable my life is. Though I'm bright and well qualified, I have become increasingly anxious since knowing her and failed a course and lost a job! Do the imperfections in a relationship, like not feeling a "Wow" factor diminish when you have a fuller life?
2006-06-27
05:40:52
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