all my life i've had crushes on boys, never on girls..i've dated a lot of guys, and some were fufilling, some werent, but i notice i always get so insecure in the relationship, about the guy leaving me or finding some one better that i almost push them away without realizing it, and now im wondering if its my subconscious telling me that im lesbian or something? or if that means something. I had a very bad childhood experience with my dad leaving me when i was 7, so i dont know if that has to do with the whole insecurity thing, but now im wondering if i wanted these boys in my life to date or to play that fatherly figure, but i dont know, i dont see why i would wnat to pursue a romantic relatonship with them if that was the case?
its really been freaking me out the most lately, im currently with my boyfriend of almost 2 years, and its been kind of rocky since this whole ocd has struck me..but today we had a fight and he said something like "you act like your obligated to have sex"
2007-02-24
16:05:27
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kelly j
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