i am in love with a straight guy that i worked with.
he has a girlfriend, and he knows that i get jealous whenever he is with her.
but i just kept quiet, i never really tell him how i feel because i know that he will never love me and i am afraid to lose him.
instead i try to give him everything that he needs. since he work for me, i prepare all his meals. i gave him bonuses, and shop for him. i worry alot about him even on small details.
i gave him a key to my other house which i heard from other people he used to bring his girls.
he tells me that he is ashamed of me and my orientation but there are also good times. weeks ago, he had been violent to me, all of the sudden he pushed me and nailed me on the floor. that appalled me because it made me think about where i went wrong. but i forgive him and still nothing changed. i am still in love with him. even from a distance. is there something wrong with me? and am i so desperate?
2006-06-22
14:05:05
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16 answers
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patric
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