If a friend of mine is disturbed by something and I can't help, I become more disturbed than him. Maybe I should not allow myself to feel anything, 'cause I always feel too much. I know that people only accept help when they want, when they think they need help, but it disturbs me to see people degrading themselves (thru drugs, unsafe sex, illusion) and not being able to do anything. It's so much intense that feeling in me that I'm trying to become a little bit selfish and just send everybody to hell. Why should I care? Why do I have to care when people are happy living in their misery and don't accept my help? They don't even need it! I have many friends who are into drugs, who practice unsafe sex, porn models and stuff...and they're happy that way...so why should I care and disturb myself ? But still I do and to such an extent that it's really hard to describe. Hard to deal with. Am I an incarnation of Mother Teresa of Calcutta or something?
2006-07-08
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