I'm 27 and have been married for 3 years. We both have very well paid jobs and would be able to give any child the best of everything. Problem is I don't like children, never have never will and my husband knew that from the start. He told me he was more than willing to give up having children if it meant spending the rest of his life with me. We’ve taken every precaution possible short of doing something permanent which my doctor said was out of the question given my age and the fact that I haven’t had children, to make sure we don't get pregnant but here I am 6 weeks pregnant. I don't want this baby. It’s going to ruin everything, all my hopes and dreams for the future going down the drain. I feel like I'm being punished. He told me that me aborting would be the one thing he would never be able to get past since he considers this baby a miracle given that it was conceived against all odds. What happened to for better or worse? My parents and my best friend who's been trying to conceive for the last 5 years think I'm being incredibly selfish, but they're not the ones who'll have to deal with a screaming baby when it arrives. Adoption is out of the question because my husband refuses to let someone else raise his child when he’s perfectly capable of doing so himself. Having the baby, divorcing him and letting him raise it is out of the question for me because of the way everyone including my friends and family will look at me for abandoning my child when I never wanted it in the first place. Why can't anyone accept my decision? Why should I have to lose everything because of a baby I never wanted in the first place?
2007-04-09
03:14:15
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