I am 17 and while jealousy is a staple in most teens lives it is huge in mines. I cannot help this feeling when it comes over me and when it comes it may come over the most trivial of things like shoes or a nice hairstyle. When I get this feeling it is so extreme that even my stomach hurts. I usually don't say anything but I carry this feeling around with me and when things are calm thats when I bring it back up. (I have suspected that I am passive agressive and I looked up some of the symptoms and the match me to a T) I will belittle the person as i said once things calm down to the point where they feel insecure and often times hurt. But i do it in little spurts, and admittedly i do it very sneaky so that people don't categorize me as "the *****" to say that it is all carefully crafted, my revenge, is a truth. And yet when I know that i've hurt someone at first i feel happy then remorsefull but most of the time empty, very empty. I don't want to be this way but I always have been.
2006-08-25
21:12:19
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